Keep your hands off!

When they came to see us, Boy H’s social worker and family finder warned us that he would appear in one of the well-known childspotting services again. They’d already arranged for this to happen before they came to see us and they also want to get more expressions of interest in him should our potential match not go ahead as planned. For the last couple of months he’s not been on the magazine or website where we originally found him, but yesterday I did an online search and he’s appeared again. I mentioned it to Glen and our hearts shrank a little. We knew this would happen, but despite all our best intentions not to get carried away in our hopes that one day Boy H will be our son, it still was really hard to see him “advertised”. I hadn’t realised just how attached we’ve got to him already. I just really wanted the website to crash, or the magazine to have some sort of printing error when it comes out in the next few days. I don’t want anyone else to see him and enquire about him. What if a “perfect couple” express an interest? Would his social workers consider them and make us wait until they’ve made a decision? Maybe drop us for someone else? It’s not a nice feeling. We now feel that we must make double sure that everything goes as smoothly and as fast as possible to avoid the chance of someone else taking him away. We can’t wait until Thursday, when his social worker and his foster carer will visit. Fingers crossed...